ready, steady, GO

why?

2006-05-14T19:58:27Z

my jesse. why did you have to drink and drive that night? you know I always tell you that my phone is on if you need a ride. I miss you so much. you were the one thatbrightened my life up when I was down.You looked at everything so positive and lived life to the fullest. You were a crazy individual, so unique, so diifferent. You were my bestfriend. I was at LaurV's yesterday and we were sitting there laughing how Sarah, Nicki, Laur and I were you 4 hoes and you were our PIMP! you so were. You didn't deserve this, you were supposed to be at Marias laying me remember? That's the last thing you said to me is, " CARLEY I'M GOING TO LAY YOU!" I was sitting outside yesterday just waiting for you to roll up in your jeep and say lets go get some food and just get trashed. I miss you so much. We all need you here right now. I never told you I liked you I always had thebiggest crush on you... well maybe you knew! Lauren told me you knew haha. I just want you to come back and say I'm kidding! I hope wherever you are there is non-stop listening to the Beatles, Power Bars, GREENTEA!, and some rock climbing with a bit of ballroom dancing. baby come back. we all want you here. What is Ms. Brennan going todo? She can't scream at us anymore for bothering her, or i cant call you and scream at you for notcoming to school because you are catching up on watching LOST. I need you here. Me you and Nat were suppoosed to go to the zoo this wednesday and I was so excited I always had so much fun with you when we hungout. Rememberwhen you and matt hated Rent and you went to go see a werid movie andcameback and we were still sitting in rent. Gosh. We had so many more good times that neededto be made! This isn't fair. Last Saturday night when we saw the Mahoney Brothers with nat we were doing thetwist and just being dumb.i'm going tomiss it. or whenyou were trying to make lindsey jealous and havemehang on you because you guys were fighthing. gosh....I truely love you boy. You were my little ooompa loompa. We were so close that one time whenthat car in the city was going 40mph andwe were so high! Then we got to see a bellydancer.It wasso muchfun. I miss you just come back already okay? THANKS! i love you babe my Jessica! love you always from your carloscooper.<33

stellastarr_bop @ 2006-03-14T18:23:00

2006-03-14T23:22:29Z

Amanda and I are going to take over the world one day!

so sick of it.

2005-07-19T14:59:39Z

im sick of you m otherfuckers being my fake friend and treating me like shit! ugh, go fuck yourselves... I wonder when I'll have the guts to tell you kbye.

stellastarr_bop @ 2005-07-14T19:26:00

2005-07-14T23:31:32Z

im so screwed, im in video studio shit tonight. i don't know what todo for my video. HELP ME! the prorifial vision thing just didn't work. i don't care give me ideas, many fucking ideas please.kthnx<3

welcome to the life of ART!

2005-06-26T20:23:15Z

Well. I'm at MICA and they finally got the internet to work. I miss home I miss my car, and i miss one other THING and its driving me nuts but why take advil when its a nic fit? i will fight it and be clean by the time i get home! I arrived here yesterday. I have 3 other roomates, I share a room with this chick lindsey shes pretty rad and shes from FL and thats cool and all, wow im sorry im tierd kids. hmm what else? My other roomates have their own rooms. Emma shes adorable and I'm in her room right now my laptop i didnt feel like making it in my room so yeah. And Sarah she is a crackhead and is never here we dont care though.

So today we were put into groups of 7 by our birthdays. Yeah, we built a 20 foot tower ONLY out of newspaper from like 9 took a break at 12 to then 3. so what. like 9 10 11 12 1 2 3 idn, like 6 or 7 hours? ours was pretty cool, we never really built it 20 feet but yeah hahahah I never knew you could be so artistic with just newspaper...did you?

I miss rachel a lot. YOU KNOw people are pretty ridiculous today, just dont fucking go into my past anymore and try to be friends with them ughhhh. go away i dont like you. okay but yeah i miss rachel i never got to say goodbye but i just got off the phone with her. shes going to Canada on Thursday I loved it there its awsome. wooo!

I never brought my camera so im gona have to take pictures with my phone of everyone and everything. There are so many different people here. No one is the same, you're your own individual its pretty cool. I need a nap I was upset late int he middle of the night lastnight but forgget them. IDC! YAY RACH hahahaha

well yeah im just rambaling on. MICA IS fun. If you want to visit me give me a call i'm sure you'd know my cellphone and you can comme up here and playy!
woooo
okay. I have a meeting soon to get our schedules and shit and I need to go wake Lindsey up because shses fast asleep.
alright yeah my layout is so fucked up! ANYONE wanna just fix it? okaybye.
<3coooops

stellastarr_bop @ 2005-06-13T19:49:00

2005-06-13T23:49:42Z

Whats it called when you just get this exciting gut feeling in your belly but don't know why?

stellastarr_bop @ 2005-04-06T00:13:00

2005-04-06T04:14:28Z

It's so crazy how life can just click in and give you the biggest reality check of your life...gosh im thankful fore verything i have.. no more complaining.

stephen why? I still don't understand. Happy 18th brithday.. RIP we will always remember your goofy self<3

you hooker you

2005-03-10T01:49:30Z

I need a break from Livejournal.
I'll still post comments on everyone else's but im leaving for a bit!
buhbye.

stellastarr_bop @ 2005-03-07T21:32:00

2005-03-08T02:32:31Z

I FEEL LIKE YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF ME, MY DRIVING, AND ANYTHING NICE I EVER DID FOR YOU.
WHAT THE FUCK.

fat kids R us'

2005-03-02T02:59:10Z

hi! I'm a fat kid. I went on the bike we just got because mah daddy was working out too& stuff...and so i went on it..NOTE that I havent worked out since september.. ugh ew. I went on the bike for 12 minutes which I was super proud ofmyself. I like the feeling you get after you work out, you feel like you accomplish something! Anyways..I got most of my interms today. I'm pretty much only passing 1 class! WHAT yeah! History at 90%! holla. I'm really behind on both computer graphics classes I need to catch up soo bad but it's hard! I finally finished my website today, I picked roxy& you pretty much had to redesign it and stuff... I did that but I had to make 3 pages& one was sunglasses director is a freaking hard program to learn for me! We're just learning flash now and I like it but its so confusing. I doubt anyone really even knows these programs that I'm talking about! hah! Ahh theres so much going on through my mind rigth now. I really want t o lose weight even thought I just randomly gained 3 or 4 pounds after staying the same weight for 6 months. I also want todo better in school. I haven't dipped out early since the beg. of 3rd quarter. butmah momma always finds out anyways... HAH! but..anyways yeah I feel like im being a good student but tonight i actually did all my homework! woot!
ahh I don't like the wind. gah<3carley

holler

2005-02-16T12:02:21Z

I'm starting to feel like I have bestfriends and it's awsome. ew... haha! I love annie and sammyrosie like no other!<3 friday night is a night i try to remember but i cANT UGH~~ hahah!<3

I made a fool of everyone

2005-02-11T03:22:25Z

You know what the best feeling is in the world?
Having your bestfriend back and knowing your comfert zone is back for good! Josh and I have been fighting a lot recently and we made up. This boy is seriously my source to happiness recently besides mah LURRA!!!!!11 Anyways this weekend is going to be the most amazing weekend ever! HAPPY 18th ALMOST ANNIE! yOU'RE THE BEST AND THE FUNNIEST SHIT EVA BEEEEETCH! I'M SO EXCITED FOR TOMORROW NIGHT! LOVEEEEEEE<3

okay bye. no comments? god seriously i think i've died on lj kbye!

hi who wants to be 5 years old again?

2005-02-09T02:32:13Z

Gosh I wish I was 5 years old again. I just want to freaking tell you but I can't. I'm crazy to know that I actually kept a promise for once. KILL ME WHY DONTCHA. so anyways let's go back to being 5 yearsold where you felt NO emotional feelings whatsoever.

ugh ew im sad.

2005-02-04T10:22:20Z

it's 5:20 AM i woke up with the chills like a bitch& my head being bleh. I have a fever. I feel like poooo. 100.5 yeah its kinda nothing but bleh it feels like im dying over here.
for all you Baltimore County fuckers we're 2 hours late!!!

ugh im sad. I was so supposed to go to Don Pablos& then Java Mommas with josh...I guess that isn't happening now. WHY COULDN'T I HAVE GOTTEN SICK DURING THE WEEK!? UGH.

blah

2005-02-01T23:54:12Z

Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what...We call a tragedy.
Come back to me, Come back to me, To me.

eep!

2005-01-30T15:56:53Z

I've been so happy lately! I forgot what it feels like for a guy to make you happy& actually have emotional feelings back! mmm!Garden State is amazing. The most amazing movie& the most amazing soundtrack. I LOVE IT. I just saw it yesterday im practically infactuated with that movie...Sad eh?
welp its snowing& lastnight i slid like 1 million times getting home itwas so scary.
how was everyones weekend!? LOVEEEEEEEE<33

UN MAH GAWD

2005-01-27T02:12:18Z

I KISSED A BOY TONIGHT, it has been my wish since 8th grade to feel this misters lipssss! haha it finally happenddd woooo!

I think i've found my real bestfriend....

2005-01-26T04:42:55Z

Laura& I met lastyear, I don't remember how. But wow! We've gotten so close she's seriously is the best. okay im done with the mooshy shit. she came over on sunday because I was pretty much snowed in and we were werid& took odd pictures...

OKay, we just have no lives& we love making fun of people in our own little ways! Also my noselooks hugeee i know.we also od'ed & now my head is goin crazy baby! I'm so excited for the weekend, Laura friday night at St. Johns& then trashy crew! yAY! omg im so dumb. This was really only for laura because yeah. LOVEEEE

the snow makes me bored like everyone else!

2005-01-23T16:50:12Z

Everyone gets bored when they're stuck home with there parents. Try being the only child doing nothing. I seriously sat there watching TV all day yesterday! Laura is coming over today. I'm excited im going ot pick her up soon with my dad...If the roads are clear then i'm gona drive laterand hopefuly see my lover joshhhhhh! haha
okay welp have a good day fuckers!!1111<3

stellastarr_bop @ 2005-01-19T21:28:00

2005-01-20T02:29:32Z

I took this picture a couple days ago out my window, i like it. god school is stressing me out I wish i could get amazing grades and we could all smile.

oh shit.

2005-01-19T11:57:42Z

my dad is going out of town. i'm here with ONLY my mom...GOD HELP ME.</3

my weeekend! hah

2005-01-16T22:24:12Z

This whole weekend so far has been fun in many ways. i wish i had pictures, but eh if you like to read go for it!

Friday
I picked Laura up and we drove around, met up with her friend Rob or something and we chizzled! Then we were near Sunny's and we had to pee so we ran into his house about to piss in our pants, then we decided we wanted to get lost and we asked sunny if he wanted to join us which he did. SamRosie call me and she asked me to go to her boyfriends apartment for his birthday and hang out.Which we attempted to later on! Anyways we drove to Towson, first we were looking for liberty road, isnt that in reisterstown? well i took the highway to get ot towson and i did amazingly well, gosh i hated it but im getting over the fear.We finally go to towson and we called Sam and asked her where ryans place was...they said by a starbucks and i freaked out and went nuts because has anyone heard of Starbucks ever having a drive-thru!? OMg i was soo exxcited sunny&laura were laughing at me so hard it was great. We thne got lost looking for Ryans place whcih i called same like 1 million times. We finally get there and chilled for a bit, ryans momma got him a teenage mutant ninja turtle yo-yo! i was soo awsome at it.. Ryan said he'd pay me 90cents an hour to just stand in the middle of the floor to do tricks with the yo-yo!We finally left his place and drove back home. I dropped sunny off and then we went to visit lauras friends again and they're white trash but i love them and it was so funny this kid stevie he's mAH BOY! He leaves me the funniiesttt messages alive and stuff and wow. Finally my mom called screaming so we had to head on home/ We finished the night off with napoleon dynamite.

Saturday
We woke up wel i woke up craving pancakes by 12 o' clock we left to go to the IHOP and then to Owings Mills mall to return this skirt. Then off to Towson we went! We got there okay. I ran into a mean ugly ughh eww persons mom and sister :-/. We also ran into abby and we were playing with her for a bit. then i had to get home by 4... so then this is when shit happens right kids? Laura and I take the highway home i guess im dumb and i byaccident took a wrong exit and we were driving for a while knowing we werent trying to get lost. sooner or later we see this sign "Now Leaving the Maryland line, Please come back again soon!" I was shitting in my pants and god i wa sso upset laura was laughing i had to get out and ask this guy how to get back to Towson at least he told me directions but of course we took a different way home on backroads. We get on this backroad and ask this yellow beatle how to get to reisterstown. These cars kept beeping behind us as they werre telling me directions so i was a fucking nut head whoscreams SHUTUP! hhahaha Then i pull up on this hilly road and this lady screams at me out her window no she didnt scream but she looked like she was giving head to a box. Oh god was it funny! Laura and I finally find our way home. Then we see the son of this mother and daughter and i peed in my pants i thought i twas funny because he's soooo ugly!

Oh yeah i also saw Lauren, Hannah, Becca, And Sharon at the Towson diner friday night. I miss them but i dont think they're to fond of me.

anyways so yeah Laura and i Find our way home i see alix and i honk and i got excited and then dropped laura off. i need to go though.I love comments. Mom and Dad are making me pick up dinner. bleh. alright love love<3

NAH yo

2005-01-10T00:56:22Z

This weekend has been odd but fun at some parts.

Friday night I was supposed to chill with an old friend, we kinda blew eachother off. I saved Sunny, we chilled for a bit then i called kelly and she was at alix's and i havent chilled with ms. sandler in forever yoooo. So sunny and I went there for a bit. Had some fun with my aqua cd which alix STILL HAS GRRRRRR. THen i took sunny home went and got a slurpee and then i came home to my mother screaming its 11:20 you said you'd be home at 11 and she was a nuthead. I watched some TV and then i CRASHED it was nice.

Saturrrday i got woken up by mother for mah hurrcut!Casey told me to go to this place my hairdresser shes from Brazil and I LOVE her. i love my hair too! woooo! I was going to dye it tonight but im not and i dono ugh bleh.
Around 4 i picked Laura up and stuff and we got some THUGSSSS hahah. Then went to SunnyLee's and mmmm that was some good chinese food yo.

I chuckle, you choke, i LAUGH! come to CHINA DINA!

We went to the teen center to see thee bands. I saw my andy cohen and i got super excited! I never ever get to see him anymore I saw mitch too!
I wanted starbucks soooo bad! So i forced Laura to come with me and her friend nicky who i just met and is adorable and it was her birhtday lastnight came too. We danced in the car and laura asked for some girls number in a silver beatle oh i love laura! I kinda got lost going to starbucks but then made it in thee end! I was mad they ran oiut of whipcream!!!!!!!! what starbucks runs out of whipcream? COME ON !!1 We got back to the teen center right when andy's band was playing. Jesse was moshing and picking his nose with me and i held mitches hooodie which was sooooooo ncie of me! haha
After that we went to Target to meet up wioth some of Laura's gangstas. I met her friend Stevie is it? and Ben. they were some nutty crazy kids! We were pushing stevie in a shopping cart and he kinda flipped on his ass because he hit a curb and laura and i were practically peeing in our pants. and then the boys freestyled. Finally almost after an hour her friends came and wechilled and then i was like i gotta get you home BIAAAAAA! So i took her friend stevie home too. and then i took ms. laura home which i love oh so much<3

Today I went to the teen campaign meeting at the jay see see. Then i saw sunny for 5 minutes and then rushed home because I was going to Delaware to see Johnson&Wales college WHICH i have no interest in going to my mom wanted to see it. The kids we found out were in a different room but the meeting was going to be over in 10 minutes and my dad freaked out on me because i didnt wanan go with the kids so im punished for a month because i didnt go in with the kids. SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW DUMB THAT SHIT IS? this ha sbeen the worst sunday in a while.

grrr.

okay i really love comments.BYEEE!!!!11

stellastarr_bop @ 2005-01-07T13:14:00

2005-01-07T18:14:43Z

why do you have to be such a bitch. if you don't like me go tell me. gosh.
and PEE ESS.
this is to someone on livejournal. guess who. your heart will drop</3

cut it out.

2005-01-05T12:00:20Z

When did my mom ever give me the choice of going to school or not to go. I went into her room because I went to get lotion or something like 10 minutes ago and shes like do you feel okay because yesterday i was complaining that i felt like shit...everytime i sat up or something i felt so dizzy and barf would come up but i wouldn't do anything about it. I'm feeling a tad bit better though. ugh. But i'm going to school I guess. I haven't missed a full day since I think Rosh Hashanah? thats sad. I mean yeah i've skipped schoool, but soon before the quarter is over I want a FULL day off to catch up on all my work. Wow I do sound stressed out from school do I or not? haha.

Anyways I hope everything goes well for Sunny today. He gost a big day wooooo. hah. I can't really say but for the people who do know.. today is the big court date. okay now you know.. haha. I'm so excited momma is making me a hair appointment today for 2 weeks. My hair is in the growing out stage and its annoying and I wanna cut it al off. ugh. It's annoying because the front will ALWAYS be longer then the back becaause after my a-line the man still cut me an a-line but different style. I miss my perfect "MadRadHair." hahaha

alright well i need to get ready for school. I'm excited Saturday night Carley+Laura=WHO KNOWS SO WATCH OUT KIDDDDS! haha<3